Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A Dedication

At the end of May, my world came crashing down when my wonderful mom didn't wake up after a surgery.  On June 18th, she died after two weeks of hospice care.

My mom. 
The most wonderful person that I know.

The most supportive, honest, kind, loving, best person in the world.

A beautiful woman in every sense of the word. 
Mom was kind to everyone, even to those who did not deserve it.

A woman who I hope to take after in many ways.  Mostly, I hope to have inherited her kind heart and her beautiful smile.  :-)  Also, I hope to one day be as amazing a mother.  I can only hope that I was as wonderful a daughter as she was.  For better or worse, both of her parents have outlived her, and she was a truly amazing daughter to them, taking care of both of them often.

I have spent the month freaking out emotionally, as  you may imagine.  For me, this included a lot of emotional eating, as well as a step down from veganism (for now, I'm "only" vegetarian...).

Anyway, I stepped on the scale yesterday morning, and it was a very ugly number.

BUT...  here's my first (there are sure to be MANY) dedication to Mom:  I dedicate this weight loss journey to my mom.  She always wanted the best for me, and that includes health and happiness.  She also always wanted me to be kind to myself, which is something that I have always struggled with.

So, I vow that I will not be mean to myself or unhealthy in any way to lose this weight. 

I rejoined Weight Watchers Online, and will be tracking on there for the time being.  Also, I will be getting back into regular exercise.  I will not be setting any unrealistic time table goals for this weight loss.  I will not beat myself up if I mess up or gain weight along the way.

I am going to live up to what my blog is called, and I will be KIND to myself during this journey.

It's time to start living life again, and I'm not exactly sure how to go about doing that, since so much of my life and my routine revolved around Mom (I live 2 minutes away from my parents' house).  I'm not as close to my dad as I was to Mom, but I'm working hard on that relationship as well. 

For now, I will start with going to work tomorrow for the first time in June.  And tracking on Weight Watchers Online.  And exercising.

I am going to try to update the blog weekly for a bit, telling you all how I've done with Weight Watchers and with being kind.  :-)

Sunday, June 3, 2012


Please pray for a miracle of healing for my mom, Kathy.  She is in the ICU with complications from a surgery that went terribly wrong.  There is no one on this earth more deserving of a miracle than my mother!!!

I normally keep religion out of this blog, but because my mom is a devout Catholic, it feels appropriate to put a bible verse in at this time. 

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding… Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.  This will bring health to your body and nourishment in your bones” (Proverbs 3:5-8). 

If anyone deserves good health and a long life, it's Mom.